Thursday. 11:46 P.M.
I am sleepy. But instead of being in a dreamland, I am here.
You know what? You will never know what will happen in the future. Even if you predict it will or won't happen, you never know.
You never know what will happen to you in the next 2 years, or even tomorrow. You never know.
I was chatting with my classmate earlier. He is the class president. He was my enemy back two years ago. He was.
See, he WAS my enemy, my very bad rival (?) two years ago. And now, I'm in the same class with him. We even exchange jokes and smiles. We're close than we are before.
My point here is, you will never know what will happen to you.
Only He knows.
If something are meant to happen to you, eventually it will. So keep calm, behave, and breathe.
nonsense pt.5
Wednesday. 7:33 P.M. My room.
I just put my earphone on, just wanna know how it feels to write—type— while listening music through them. Its not that bad. But its not that good either.
I just finished reading All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven like, 10 minutes ago. It's such a loving and touching story. You should try to read it—If anybody really do read this entry.
I have my local languange subject tomorrow, and we are assign to do this project call, "introduce yourself to the class" thing. Its fun to watch my friends introducing themselves. Awkwardly, sheepishly, funnily and most of all, shyly.
We are comfortable with each other, everyone are fun to be with, some are not really friendlier, but they are good. Some are the type of 'quiet in school but badass outside'. Its surprisingly surprise—if such a word exist lol.
But really, they are fun. Watching them introducing themselves like we just know each other are fun, but when its your turn, you just wanna the floor swallow you in cause its so damn embarrassing. Its not my turn yet, but I know its mine tomorrow.
Where should I stand? In the middle? Near the teacher? How should I stand? Straightly? Or slightly bend down? What tone should I use? High? Medium? Or like a whisper? What should I do with my hands? Keep them behind me? Or hold them tight infront? Or just put them loosely?
That kind of thing keeps crossing my mind. And the most are, what should I say about my hobby? Cause I got too many hobbies.
-Fangirling (damn yes)
-Reading
-Listening
-Drawing
-Doodling
-Writing
-Collecting various kind of poems
-Staring at people (its weird i know)
-Photographing
-Singing
-Dancing
-Sleeping
Look, I got like more than 10 hobbies list down. But I think I will just go with reading and drawing...meh.
After all, this is not the reason why I write this entry.
"Just be careful with your heart." Kate to Finch in All the Bright Places.
I just put my earphone on, just wanna know how it feels to write—type— while listening music through them. Its not that bad. But its not that good either.
I just finished reading All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven like, 10 minutes ago. It's such a loving and touching story. You should try to read it—If anybody really do read this entry.
I have my local languange subject tomorrow, and we are assign to do this project call, "introduce yourself to the class" thing. Its fun to watch my friends introducing themselves. Awkwardly, sheepishly, funnily and most of all, shyly.
We are comfortable with each other, everyone are fun to be with, some are not really friendlier, but they are good. Some are the type of 'quiet in school but badass outside'. Its surprisingly surprise—if such a word exist lol.
But really, they are fun. Watching them introducing themselves like we just know each other are fun, but when its your turn, you just wanna the floor swallow you in cause its so damn embarrassing. Its not my turn yet, but I know its mine tomorrow.
Where should I stand? In the middle? Near the teacher? How should I stand? Straightly? Or slightly bend down? What tone should I use? High? Medium? Or like a whisper? What should I do with my hands? Keep them behind me? Or hold them tight infront? Or just put them loosely?
That kind of thing keeps crossing my mind. And the most are, what should I say about my hobby? Cause I got too many hobbies.
-Fangirling (damn yes)
-Reading
-Listening
-Drawing
-Doodling
-Writing
-Collecting various kind of poems
-Staring at people (its weird i know)
-Photographing
-Singing
-Dancing
-Sleeping
Look, I got like more than 10 hobbies list down. But I think I will just go with reading and drawing...meh.
After all, this is not the reason why I write this entry.
"Just be careful with your heart." Kate to Finch in All the Bright Places.
be careful
Horrible. Terrible. Mess. Dangerous.
Whats is it?
Feeling
They are horribly terrible. They will mess up our heart, and our mind. They are dangerous.
They will make you have fake feels.
Be careful.
nonsense pt.4
With a cross leg—as usual—and a pillow on my laps, and a chocolate bread on it, I am writing this entry right now. On 8:17 p.m.
So many thing happened lately,and it teach me what life really is. You know, sometimes the people who you don't expect to be close to, will be stay in your life. And sometimes, the people who you thought will always stay in your life, walk away.
It's the road of life. People come, and leave. The one that suppose to stay with you in your life, will eventually come to you.
It's 8:21 p.m., VIXX LR, Ravi's Solo, Ghost, is playing right now. I suddenly remember what happened at school today. And I wonder, if that kind of scene, hilarious scene, will happen again. Maybe yes. But in a different way.
You know, I am so happy today, right now too. I laugh too much, and smile too much for today. Then I start to think, something, terrible or more worse is coming soon. You know you can't be happy all the time right?
It is not a perfect life, if you happy all the time. Something will happen, soon, I know. But for now, let just cherish everthing, remember every corner of this memory in our head, in our heart.
Because, if we don't, who will?
So many thing happened lately,and it teach me what life really is. You know, sometimes the people who you don't expect to be close to, will be stay in your life. And sometimes, the people who you thought will always stay in your life, walk away.
It's the road of life. People come, and leave. The one that suppose to stay with you in your life, will eventually come to you.
It's 8:21 p.m., VIXX LR, Ravi's Solo, Ghost, is playing right now. I suddenly remember what happened at school today. And I wonder, if that kind of scene, hilarious scene, will happen again. Maybe yes. But in a different way.
You know, I am so happy today, right now too. I laugh too much, and smile too much for today. Then I start to think, something, terrible or more worse is coming soon. You know you can't be happy all the time right?
It is not a perfect life, if you happy all the time. Something will happen, soon, I know. But for now, let just cherish everthing, remember every corner of this memory in our head, in our heart.
Because, if we don't, who will?
Life
Life,
Is not always fill with
Beautiful memories,
Life,
Is not always
Pink and full of unicorns,
Sometimes,
Life needs a spark of
Sorrow
Sadness
Betray
Cheat
Anger
Because without them,
We will never learn
From mistake,
Without them,
Life will be
different,
Because with them,
We are,
Perfect
Is not always fill with
Beautiful memories,
Life,
Is not always
Pink and full of unicorns,
Sometimes,
Life needs a spark of
Sorrow
Sadness
Betray
Cheat
Anger
Because without them,
We will never learn
From mistake,
Without them,
Life will be
different,
Because with them,
We are,
Perfect
she
She.
She is small, and pretty.
She.
She full of energy, despite from her small figure.
She.
She is nice, and kind.
She.
She smile everytime she see me.
She.
She hide her sorrow under a smile.
She.
She smile so bright than the sun till nobody ever thought about the storm in her life.
She.
Broken and small,
Sad and crying,
Under her mask.
She is strong. I know she is. She is brave. I know she is. She will be okay. I know she will. Just hang on a little longer, my friend.
nonsense pt.3
I'm laying on my pinkeu bed —everything in this room is pink, everything, It makes me dizzy tbh. Divergent book is by my side. My tab is connect to a charger —Surfing the web while phone is on charge is no fun.
I'm listening to all of Mask's OST. It is a good story tbh. I don't know what to say, hell, even in my prev post I don't know what to say but end up have something to say anyway.
Let's get this straight to the point.
It's okay to have a crush.
It's okay to break down when knowing they have a relationship.
It's okay to feel sad.
But it is not okay to cry.
It hard at first, but you gotta use to it later. You need to move on in order to forget them. It hard, I know. But you need to show them you're strong.
Suddenly there's a quote in my mind.
I'm listening to all of Mask's OST. It is a good story tbh. I don't know what to say, hell, even in my prev post I don't know what to say but end up have something to say anyway.
Let's get this straight to the point.
It's okay to have a crush.
It's okay to break down when knowing they have a relationship.
It's okay to feel sad.
But it is not okay to cry.
It hard at first, but you gotta use to it later. You need to move on in order to forget them. It hard, I know. But you need to show them you're strong.
Suddenly there's a quote in my mind.
Who knows that there might a chance that someone out there is looking out for you?
Well.
I'm talking nonsense again.
Nonsense pt.2
I'm laying on my bed, legs cross with each other, it's currently 5:14 PM. No songs are being play this time. No songs. Only the sound of the wind coming from my fan can be heard. Blank. Empty.
Just like my soul, mind, body, and heart right now.
I should't being like this. Yes I shouldn't. But I can't stop myself either, you know, from being heartbroken and such....Well.
What is the most sadest and painful time when having a crush?
Probably not when you're going to say Hi, to say a FREAKING HI after staring and spying like a ninja on your crush like forever but then your friend suddenly inform you, that your crush is having a relationship.
A relationship.
A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP.
I told you.
This is probably not the sadest and painful time when having a crush.
Probably.
Just like my soul, mind, body, and heart right now.
I should't being like this. Yes I shouldn't. But I can't stop myself either, you know, from being heartbroken and such....Well.
What is the most sadest and painful time when having a crush?
Probably not when you're going to say Hi, to say a FREAKING HI after staring and spying like a ninja on your crush like forever but then your friend suddenly inform you, that your crush is having a relationship.
A relationship.
A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP.
I told you.
This is probably not the sadest and painful time when having a crush.
Probably.
Nonsense Pt.1
I should be sleeping right now, I have school tomorrow. But no, I'm not sleeping, I'm currently on my bed, legs cross with each other, a tab in my hand, and listening over random korean songs—I shuffle all of the songs. Infinite - Real Story is playing right now.
A chat come in my noti. It's from Yaya. Wait a min, I'm going to reply her chat.
Done, where are we again? Oh yeah, I forgot, we didn't talk about anything actually. I guess I'm bored right now, and seems like writing a blog can kill the time.
I just finish my homework, not really finish, just half done, the rest will do it at school. Typical student.
Admit it.
You have done it too.
My tab's time show "11:42" right now, and my battery is only 57% I dunno why I'm telling you this. Just feel like to. Because I'm bored, yeah.
Wait a min, I need to reply Yaya's chat. We're talking about Infinite's Weekly Idol. I don't know why I'm telling you this, ah, yeah, because I'm bored.
My battery right now is 56% and it's 11:45 PM. I realy should be sleeping.
I guess.
The song that playing right now is Insane by BTOB. Mentioning about Insane....I think I've lost my sanity right now.
Because it's 11:46 at night, and my battery is only 56%, and my father is watching Jurassic World in the living room—I can hear the screaming, and I amtalking writing on this blog, alone. Without a reader to read this creepy ugly messy blog of mine.
I've lost my sanity.
I guess I should really go to sleep.
A chat come in my noti. It's from Yaya. Wait a min, I'm going to reply her chat.
Done, where are we again? Oh yeah, I forgot, we didn't talk about anything actually. I guess I'm bored right now, and seems like writing a blog can kill the time.
I just finish my homework, not really finish, just half done, the rest will do it at school. Typical student.
Admit it.
You have done it too.
My tab's time show "11:42" right now, and my battery is only 57% I dunno why I'm telling you this. Just feel like to. Because I'm bored, yeah.
Wait a min, I need to reply Yaya's chat. We're talking about Infinite's Weekly Idol. I don't know why I'm telling you this, ah, yeah, because I'm bored.
My battery right now is 56% and it's 11:45 PM. I realy should be sleeping.
I guess.
The song that playing right now is Insane by BTOB. Mentioning about Insane....I think I've lost my sanity right now.
Because it's 11:46 at night, and my battery is only 56%, and my father is watching Jurassic World in the living room—I can hear the screaming, and I am
I've lost my sanity.
I guess I should really go to sleep.
don't 하지마
Don't worried too much for me.
Don't give attention too much for me.
Don't care too much for me.
Don't give love too much for me.
Because I might want more. And more. And more and in the end, I might be a greedy person which I'm afraid the most.
So please, don't give too much. I might complain, but I'm fine on my own.
Just give me a little of your worry.
Just give me a bit of your attention.
Just give me a tiny of your care.
Just give me a little bit tiny of your love.
I'm thankful for your worry, attention, care and love. I'm thankful even it just a little, tiny, or bit. I'm thankful. Thank you, and don't worry. I will be fine on my own.
Don't give attention too much for me.
Don't care too much for me.
Don't give love too much for me.
Because I might want more. And more. And more and in the end, I might be a greedy person which I'm afraid the most.
So please, don't give too much. I might complain, but I'm fine on my own.
Just give me a little of your worry.
Just give me a bit of your attention.
Just give me a tiny of your care.
Just give me a little bit tiny of your love.
I'm thankful for your worry, attention, care and love. I'm thankful even it just a little, tiny, or bit. I'm thankful. Thank you, and don't worry. I will be fine on my own.
It's Okay
Cry. Crying. Cried. It's the only way you let it all out without speaking a single word. Crying doesn't mean you're weak. Keep it safely in your mind. Crying doesn't mean you're weak, I repeat, Crying doesn't mean you're weak. Don't hold the tears, instead, let it out. It doesn't make you look weak, it make people know that you're hurting but you hold it back, but it had reach your limit and you can't keep it anymore. It's okay to cry, it's okay.
Crying alone or crying with someone there beside you, it had a huge dufferent. Crying alone means you're hurting alone, nobody will comfort you, you, the broken you is the only one that will comfort yourself. But crying alone shows that you don't want anybody to know that you're hurting, it shows that you're strong. But, crying with a person beside you, comforting you in their hug and comforting words, is way much better than crying alone. It's your choice to choose, both make you feel relief after crying anyway.
Quotes ;
Crying alone or crying with someone there beside you, it had a huge dufferent. Crying alone means you're hurting alone, nobody will comfort you, you, the broken you is the only one that will comfort yourself. But crying alone shows that you don't want anybody to know that you're hurting, it shows that you're strong. But, crying with a person beside you, comforting you in their hug and comforting words, is way much better than crying alone. It's your choice to choose, both make you feel relief after crying anyway.
Quotes ;
Nobody knows
People are always thinking that they are the only one who's hurting, but do they think about other's pain? Do they? I know the feeling when you get hurts, feel like the world are against you, feel like everybody who loves you actually hates you, I know the feeling very well.
But for once, please, please think about other's pain. We don't know what they struggles in life, we don't know what they need to face in life, we didn't know their pains, their scars in them, we didn't know. None of us knows.
For once, please stop everything you're doing right now, and think.
Do you know your friend's pain?
Do you know your best friend's pain?
Do you know your family member's pain?
Do you know the pains of the person who are sitting beside you right now?
No. You don't know. We will never know their pains. So please, stop thinking that you're the one in pains, sometimes, the bright and cheerful person in your life is having a hard time, torn apart, breaking apart, hearts ache whenever they cry, but they still smile in front of you. Smie brightly. Yes, sometimes you need to let it out, but for now, please hold it on as much as you can. When you can't hold it anymore when you can't smile anymore, when you don't know what is happiness anymore, you can let it out.
In my life, my goals is making people happy eventhough I will get hurt. It just... I just CAN'T SIT CALMLY WHEN PEOPLE, MY BELOVED PEOPLE, ARE HURTING. I just can't. Yes, I do get hurts, but there will be some people behind me to support me. Encouraging me that I'm not alone, and I'm thankful for that. Really really thankful.
Quotes of the day ;
May god bless you all, and may you did well in life♡
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