The thing that I afraid the most? Losing my friendship.
My friends are everything to me, though I might not be an everything to them. Friendship is a precious thing. A relation that can't be explain into words. I just hope that my friendship with them will last longer. Longer....I wish.
A Dream Came True? More Like A Nightmare Came True.
First of all, this is not a happy announcement because I dreamt I didn't get my upu's choice.....and it came true. sigh. but i got poli. so....i'll go with matriks. I got matriks at KMPh Gambang. I don't know whether this is a right choice for me or not....but i'll just go with the flow.
I mean, fine, i'm totally fine with account but somewhere deep in my heart... i still hope i get TESL. It hurts when you didn't get the thing you want, ya know. sigh.
I'm both afraid and excited to get into matriks. But one thing for sure, i will be completely alone. My friends during elementary and high school either go with their upu's choices or didn't apply for matriks. How will I survive? D:
I'm afraid, I am so afraid...There are so many 'what ifs' in my mind. I'm afraid I couldn't do well in exam. I'm afraid I can't reach the exact pointer. Bad thoughts are flooding in my mind. I know I need to think of the positive, but i cant help it from coming ya know :(
*sigh*
YOSHHH! I just need to think of the positives things. You can do well. You can do it. You will be well there. Don't worry. (I AM FREAKIN' WORRYING RN)
Anyway, it still weeks away before I'll be officially a matriks student. So right now, I will enjoy my life (if i could). Poor who got the upu's choices cos their register date due on 24th May. HAHA. Goodluck untuk berpuasa di sana :D muahahaha *evil laugh* At least I got to spend my first day of Ramadhan with my family <3
But...I think my orientation will due on Ramadhan as well right? Oh no....Oh God pls no....
Oh well, I will worry about it when it comes :) Now, spend your free time with your families and friends(mostly my friends are away from me, gajima chinguyaaa T.T )
Good luck to everyone, and good luck to myself as well. ☺
I mean, fine, i'm totally fine with account but somewhere deep in my heart... i still hope i get TESL. It hurts when you didn't get the thing you want, ya know. sigh.
I'm both afraid and excited to get into matriks. But one thing for sure, i will be completely alone. My friends during elementary and high school either go with their upu's choices or didn't apply for matriks. How will I survive? D:
I'm afraid, I am so afraid...There are so many 'what ifs' in my mind. I'm afraid I couldn't do well in exam. I'm afraid I can't reach the exact pointer. Bad thoughts are flooding in my mind. I know I need to think of the positive, but i cant help it from coming ya know :(
*sigh*
YOSHHH! I just need to think of the positives things. You can do well. You can do it. You will be well there. Don't worry. (I AM FREAKIN' WORRYING RN)
Anyway, it still weeks away before I'll be officially a matriks student. So right now, I will enjoy my life (if i could). Poor who got the upu's choices cos their register date due on 24th May. HAHA. Goodluck untuk berpuasa di sana :D muahahaha *evil laugh* At least I got to spend my first day of Ramadhan with my family <3
But...I think my orientation will due on Ramadhan as well right? Oh no....Oh God pls no....
Oh well, I will worry about it when it comes :) Now, spend your free time with your families and friends(mostly my friends are away from me, gajima chinguyaaa T.T )
Good luck to everyone, and good luck to myself as well. ☺
they said
They said first love never works. But I already on my nth love and it still doesn't work. sigh
I gather the little courage inside me and send him a message, maybe for the last time. Finally I've come clear with him. No more secrets, I guess. He is going soon, far away. Sooooo faaarrrrr awaaaayyyyyy *Sing so far away by Avenged Sevenfold LOL*
BTW, I think I might get over him soon. All I need to do is to take a step forward. Little by little, like a baby who try to walk. Goodluck, dear self.
I gather the little courage inside me and send him a message, maybe for the last time. Finally I've come clear with him. No more secrets, I guess. He is going soon, far away. Sooooo faaarrrrr awaaaayyyyyy *Sing so far away by Avenged Sevenfold LOL*
BTW, I think I might get over him soon. All I need to do is to take a step forward. Little by little, like a baby who try to walk. Goodluck, dear self.
confuse
Believe or not, high school already end for me Those times in school feel like a dream, real yet so dreamy. I miss high school, sigh. I miss my fellow classmates :'(
BTW, keputusan for tingkatan 6/stpm already out last week and guess what? I doesn't get the tawaran. Idk if I should be sad or happy. I'm still confuse about my future, what course should I take, should I go with stpm or matriks or upu's choice. Sigh. Result matriks akan keluar 27hb ni so yeah...... if I get matriks, that means I will go on with Account. If I get my upu's choice which is TESL, I might go on with TESL. But, the problem is, I am still confuse on which course I should take. Accountancy or TESL?
Tbh, I'm not good at both :'( OTTOKEEE *screams*
I like Math since I was little, I'm kinda good at it in primary school. I like calculations, I aim to solve the problem. BUT account ni boleh buat orang pening kepala kalau tak dapat the answer, gahh. And I've read some enrty about accountancy in matriks, and they have EKONOMI. *deep sigh*
I have learnt Eko in high school, and frankly said, I always failed. YEP, failed. I dunno whyyyyyyy but i'm not good at it :'( So I think a lot about this ya know. In another hand, IF I go with TESL, the only pekerjaan yg I nampak kalau ambik TESL ni is mengajar, teach, teaching, jadi cikgu. BUT I'M NOT GOOD AT TEACHING. *screeeaaammmmsss*
*sigh*
I'm scared tbh, really really scared. I'm scared about my future....everyone looks so confident and happy about their choices and here I am.....feeling scared and down....*sigh for the nth time*
BTW, keputusan for tingkatan 6/stpm already out last week and guess what? I doesn't get the tawaran. Idk if I should be sad or happy. I'm still confuse about my future, what course should I take, should I go with stpm or matriks or upu's choice. Sigh. Result matriks akan keluar 27hb ni so yeah...... if I get matriks, that means I will go on with Account. If I get my upu's choice which is TESL, I might go on with TESL. But, the problem is, I am still confuse on which course I should take. Accountancy or TESL?
Tbh, I'm not good at both :'( OTTOKEEE *screams*
I like Math since I was little, I'm kinda good at it in primary school. I like calculations, I aim to solve the problem. BUT account ni boleh buat orang pening kepala kalau tak dapat the answer, gahh. And I've read some enrty about accountancy in matriks, and they have EKONOMI. *deep sigh*
I have learnt Eko in high school, and frankly said, I always failed. YEP, failed. I dunno whyyyyyyy but i'm not good at it :'( So I think a lot about this ya know. In another hand, IF I go with TESL, the only pekerjaan yg I nampak kalau ambik TESL ni is mengajar, teach, teaching, jadi cikgu. BUT I'M NOT GOOD AT TEACHING. *screeeaaammmmsss*
*sigh*
I'm scared tbh, really really scared. I'm scared about my future....everyone looks so confident and happy about their choices and here I am.....feeling scared and down....*sigh for the nth time*
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